One of the blogs I follow asked her readers what word they would choose for themselves for the upcoming new year of 2011. I had to think a minute and ultimately chose the word contentment. I've always thought I was a contented person and truly blessed but lately I've had my doubts about the contentment part. Especially, this season in my life. Turning 60 a few years ago was tramatic to say the least. Now at 62, I am officially considered a "senior citizen" in most circles. Not to long ago I saw Jane Fonda and Ali McGraw on Oprah and they were telling the audiance and viewers how liberating being in their seventies was. Fresh off the plastic surgeon's operating table they had the faces of thirty year olds and the bodies to match. I don't have such luxuries. I get to keep my face and body as is for the rest of my life. Not a pretty picture.
I am intelligent enough to know that one can't stay young forever and the body gets older as the years go by and yes, there will be aches, pains and wrinkles. But looking in the mirror, I see that I'm losing my eyebrows and I swear my ears are getting bigger, and where my lips went I don't know. I finally have boobs but they hang to my waist and the hair on my head once thick and a pretty auburn brown is thinning at a very fast rate. I have arthritic knees and I don't think you want to know about my colon. In other words, getting older sucks and I am not content with the whole concept of it.
As you can see the word contentment is the perfect word for me this year. The Bible class that I attend on Tuesday mornings will begin a study on contentment with the different seasons of one's life and I am hoping this study will enlighten me on how to deal with my feelings of getting older. Don't get me wrong. I am content with having grown children and grandchildren and the freedom that I have now in my life to enjoy retirement and do what I want to do when I want to do it. But I am not content with the aging process.
Having said all that, my question to you is what word would you choose for yourself for 2011? I would love to know.